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Thursday, March 8

today was a half smooth and half rough day
smooth because i manage to do my chemistry test rather well
without much difficulty
thanks to my CHEMISTRY TEXTBOOK
borrowed from my tutor
and i finally found my chemistry textbook
PRAISE THE LORD
heng arh
if i would to go purchase one it would be bloody costly
anyway the rough part of the day was when during PE
i forgotten to bring my PE attire
and during PE we tried high jump and Jian Liang made some really retarded comments
and then i think some people commented about me as well as far as i heard
so that kinda made me really upset
i don't understand why
i get afected by what others say very much
or the kind of attention i get?
some people say that i am a attention seeker
am i?
is that how people classify me as?
well i don't think i would give a damm now
and i also had my maths test
kinda like a quiz today; on similar and congruency
i am kinda messed up with the formulas and which is which
yeps, and so i missed out a few questions

and also yesterday for my physics test
it was kinda good
i mean like i could answer the questions; i think
although i was not very sure
but well thats as far as i can remember so
i just gave it my all

oh yeah and here i have to apologize to Adrian
because he actually asked me rate his skins yesterday at blog skins
and just because of my 4.5 rating he din't get in
i really do not understand how things works there so
yeps here i am to offer my apology

and LTC s coming soon;
kinda excited and worried
and maybe a tinge of jealousy?
sometimes i feel that i am really retarded
becasue i get worked up over things that i usually tell others
not to worry about at all
IRONY

still aching all over from the HIGH jump
i think i better exercise more
i can't seem to really fin time between my work and play
am i working too hard this year?
should i slack and maybe just drop all the way down?
but i am really going to suffer in the long run
maybe thats the reason why people commit suicide and such
because they never look at the long run and really think if it is worth it

i am really like regretting getting into this class because of the classmates
it has really seriously affected my feelings
i have alway though of what hui wen said:
'always post about happy things and such; try not rant on your blog'
she is right
but how long can this continue?
maybe i am not used to the drop of friends?

i better blog about more happy things now
i am really determined to WIN this competion that is coming up really soon
and show the world that i can do art really well
so what if i got 81 for art
all people would say is
'what is the use of scoring so high for your art?'
i kinda agree to a certain extend..
hmm; i better think about what i want for my future

and i would be going shopping later for a gift for the children
in the orphanage of Bintan
for the LTC;it is part of the plan for the last day
i think; as far as i can remember
maybe i should look round minitoons, toys r us.
budget of $10

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am i really asking/expecting for too much from what life has to offer to me?
i should stay on
be focus
and beat them down