i'm sorry to have to blog so late i have been busy these few days and aloty have really happened in my life some are major and some are not so major the thing is that i have lost a friend that is very close to me lie really good friends and soon after that i saw emily crying bitterly by the bench and for the same reason , sometimes i really wonder if friends are there to help you comfort you alawys be there for you.. or just do the opposite. just when you thought that they are here to stay they are gone ... when you think you can rely on them , they shun away ... when you think they are nice, they turn their heads ... is there someone out there saying someting? or is god just putting me to the test or maybe it lies all the way down to me?